BRASIL....

I know once I got back little was said about Brasil. MAdddd people wanted to give intricate details about everything I did but I just wasn't feeling it. Honestly i just didn't feel like talking about it because I was completely drained. LeT me start of by saying it was my first time out of the country and I traveled alone. It was very interesting and I opening. Sooooooooooo when I finally made it there because talking about my experience in the airport would make me mad all over again....Prisicila a 19 year old black Brazilian girl and her aunt Mieza picked me up from the airport. It took about 2 hours to make it back to the community they lived in. They were poor black Brazilians and they lived in a favela (slums). It was quite depressing walking through the community i saw naked children, incomplete homes, just horrible conditions that I felt no one should have to endure. So it was utter culture shock needless to say. So when I finally made it to my room I was happy but still sad because I didn't have my suitcases. So I finally got my bags the next day. My day to day was getting up in the morning and attending a Portuguese class across town. We walked the bus station every morning (they didn't own a car) and we got off at the nearest stop to our school. The reason I say our is because I met another student from Howard there. Her name was Lorin and boy was she my saving grace...OMG...someone else that spoke English..even thought she was from the Caribbean and at times it was hard to understand...SHE STILL SPOKE ENGLISH. No one in the home spoke English..Priscila spoke broken English. After class we came back home and took showers because it was extremely hot. For fun we went to clubs, they had a lot of outside and neighborhood concerts, we went to the mall, souvenir shopping, and of course capoeira. Lorin and I taught an English class twice a week to students from ages 12 to 54. It was very interesting the class was in the evening time...they were very eager to learn English. We watched Television sometimes Brazilian people love soccer and novelas (soap operas). Whoever said that music was the universal language wasn't lying because although they could not speak English they knew every American song ever. In the household i lived in they loved to listen to Toni Braxton. They played her all day every day. The food was okay but i'm a very picky eater and we really didn't eat out...the grandmother cooked everyday. My teacher is "old school" and took it upon herself to tell the family that all American students like cheeseburgers...lol..I just laughed when they told them that and told them politely that I didn't. We went to different museums and saw the sights. The beach was really nice but i didn't go alot. The experience in Brazil was very eye opening it made me appreciate the life I live. Although I have had a lot of bad experiences my situation at it's present state could be a lot more wrost. I disagree with a lot of things my government does and just down right don't like it but I love my country. The liberties and freedoms that we have we should definitely be a little more appreciative because I know that a lot of my friends and family wouldn't be able to live on a daily basis. Some of you don't even like to wash clothes by throwing them in the washer and dryer I had to hand wash mine and put it on a liner. I practically walked everywhere i went to. Life was just totally different. The state of our people what i mean is black people over there is horrible and we as African American should take more initiative to help me them. We all came from the same descendants those are our brothers and sisters...Tell me your thoughts or if you have any questions on what it is we can do to help the blacks of Salvador, Bahia. The community where I lived in is called Ondina in case you wanted to Google it or something...

People Everday

What's up my limited readers aka my closest friends. I know I haven't been on here in a while...due to the fact that I'm back at school..no excuses though. Wow....so much has happened since my last post but in the forefront of my mind is the people I seem to interact with everyday. I find that being around these people make me learn something about myself everyday. I have come to realize that I have no patience for people who gossip and I'm not fond of those who down others. I mean wowsers aren't some people allowed to make mistakes in life. I Love My School Good Ol' Howard Univerisity...but some of the people here can I say...EXTRA. My gosh don't change yourself to what you think other people want you to be. Be You because your best at that. You have been your entire life and it has gotten you this far. I practice being Morgan Diana because it comes natural. The natural characteristics of me are that i'm silly, i love to love, i'm giving, I have a genuine care for people that I can honestly say I got from my mother. I really don't dig when people try to take advantage of me but you will have those that try. And with those that do it's just another learning experience in your life. I think of my blog and the things I do with my life as a painting. The blog and my life are the canvas and all thing things that I do in my life are the intricate details that go onto my canvas and they add to it to make a beautiful composition. I am beginning to appreciate life alot more as I have gotten older. I find myself thinking about things in a new light. This is basically a little note to my friends to keep being themselves because in that you can help others. Any topics you think that I such touch on just let me know. Thanks...Smooches

Thoughts of My Day

Well today when i finally decided to wake up all I could think about was life in general. I was thinking about being young and in college. All I could think about was how i should be taking full advantage of not having any responsibilities: kids, bills, etc. At the beginning of the summer I saw so many of my old classmates and people I had met through out my life that were pregnant or already had children, some of them even married and I was like WHOA!!! Way to fast for me. I am too young and I need to see the world and experience life to the fullest. And as young as I am I wouldn't be able to do it with all the restrictions I listed above. So I just thank God this morning for not letting me get caught in the hype and showing Morgan the great things in life. I know of lot you probably went home this summer and a lot of your all friends were in positions you would have never imagined them in. Even people in the older crowds, I know that you are going back to class reunions or even just finding someone you went to high school or college with on myspace and you are just blown by where some of these people are in life. So if you don't mind share some of your stores with me in the comment box!!!!

Kindred Friend

This is a poem that I wrote about a year ago when i was transitioning from high school to college. At the time I really didn't understand that I was going to lose a lot of friends and many people would change including myself. Last night I read the poem for the first time since I had wrote and it was a trip so tell if you like it or whatever!!! Here it is:

Kindred Friend

Somebody to care for me, love me, come see about me
But its not just about m.e. its also about he or she
I’m just wondering will they ever come
Or is it a figment of my imagination
Or are my emotions having déjà vu
Will my kindred friend ever be true
Will he or she ever have life and if so with me
I’m sick of these false and unreal affinities
I’m morbid of the vogue friendship
I’m only in this for the convenience of your leisure
Not to love me because of me
But to satisfy your boredom for the day
It is not your fault in its entirety for I allowed it
But today it stops don’t be shocked about it
I presuppose my kindred friend will come along
I will no longer indulge your false fancy of acquaintanceship
For I have found the meaning of Kindred friendship
I desire it so I will not tolerate the misuse of my time
To befriend those who couldn’t appreciate my gifts of love, compassion, and time
My kindred friendship will come in time
For God is Love and Love comes in time

1:09 a.m. on 07/16/06

Relationship Stuff

Well today is just an average day for me. Today I woke up an finished reading this book call the Ex Files by Victoria Christopher. It was a very interesting book about four women and their life trails and their faith. It's a Christian fiction novel and for it to be my first book by the author I think that it was awesome. After reading my uncle and went out grabbed a bite to eat, got the detailed, stopped by a couple of stores and came home. Yesterday, I hung out with some of my guy friends Chris and Julian and that was cool because I am always happy to see those guys. Life is just going pretty good!!! Drama the free the way I like it. Today the thought of relationships popped into my mind. Now I am a young person with an old sold I believe. I also know that I'm not an expert on relationships or the most committed but what is wrong with people (young people especially) and jumping from one relationship to another or sex partner and all the damn games i mean i'm tired of it. If you like just say you do, don't prance on my feelings and give me the bullish you know! First of all do we consider all that goes in to being in a relationship with another person. You have to think about that person in all the decisions you make, that's if you really care. Your have to constantly worry about is this going to hurt his/her feelings and it's just alot of work that we don't think about before we just jump into a relationship and I know that I am guilty of it also. Foreal foreal I know that I say I want to be in a relationship but am I really. I mean i have to always think about dude and I have to call him and talk to him and spend time with him. That is a lot of investment when on one hand I am in college right now, working for the school newspaper, probably will pick up a part-time job, and any dude that I consider right now or have on my mind doesn't even go to school with me so that means "Distant Lovers". Am I really ready to deal with all of that??? I don't know but then there is the other side of things that you have to learn with time and go through trail and error. No one I know has got love down to a science maybe that is a good way of thinking about it. Just try it, and then whatever happens just happens!! To be honest I wouldn't even say that I was looking for love or a relationship. I don't wake up everyday wanting to be in love or in a relationship. I just really live life normally not even thinking of it most of the time. Today was just one of those random days I thought "Hey, maybe it would be cool to have a significant other right now." I probably thought that because you see all the dang love stories on TV ( i did watch the Oprah with Angela Basset and Courtney Vance lol) and read all these crazy books and for moment you get all mushy and out of your element and your like "that might be nice." (LOL) I don't just some random thoughts on relationships!!! If you even make to the bottom of this tell your thoughts and comments! Thanks ;-)