sO mAnY tHiNgs....

There are so many things I want to do but I just realize that somethings it's just not time for me to do. It's a season for everything and i'm just trying to worry free. That's my problem though...I worry about stuff to much and seem to over think certain things some times but I'm getting better. I want to learn how to play guitar so bad but you may ask what's stopping me??? It's me that's stopping me I have the ability to do everything in time but i procrastinate and I don't save the money to buy a guitar. I also want to work on my photography more but I don't go out and work on it as much as I should. I am what is stopping myself from exceeding to greater heights. I make excuses but it's my fault. You get out what you put in right! So today i'm going to do the things that make me happy. But question what if the thing that you think will make you happy makes you sad trying to get it? Should you still do it? Good Question because i don't know right now.....ANY TAKERS!?!?!?!

Shuttle Bus Blues

OKAY so today i went to sleep at 5am right...stayed up studying and chillin I mean i just really couldn't go to sleep. So I woke up again at about 8:45am so that I could go to class! SUPER SLUGGISH....i walk down the stairs waiting on the shuttle in front of Slowe Hall (BIG UPS TO STEPHAN "BIRD" HALL, he won Mr. Slowe)...but anyway back to my day!!! So the shuttle finally comes and the rudest of all the bus drivers is driving today. So i'm walking up the steps and I find me an empty row. At this point i'm happy the shuttle didn't take so long so i won't be super late but at the same time i get to press the snooze button a little longer! NOW i'm not trying to be mean so I hope no one takes offense to this and I have heard WAY TO MANY STORIES similar to how i'm feeling today not to say anything so I am going to put it out there. This full figured young lady comes to sit by me. AND i don't know about everybody else but i like my personal space and the seat i sat in was for one person. You may be laughing by now because you know where i'm going but i was extremely upset this morning because by snooze button was turned off by someone who was completely SQUISHING ME!!! Now there are a few things this individual could have done to prevent this from happening: one she could have set somewhere else, two she could have leaned a little more to the left, and three should could have closed her legs because spreading was not an option....although it obviously was because she was in My SPACE!!! Now i have had family members complain and complain about someone on an airplane ride being oversized for just one seat. Then they have the nerve to apologize, I'm sorry that i don't care for you apology and i'm like Kat William, "Don't be sorry, be careful!!!" Obviously if you have ever flown before and your experiencing this problem again maybe you need to buy a first class ticket where I hear the seats are much bigger or buy two economy class seats! So any rebuttles on thoughts just comment!!! I don't mind this all just my opinion but more like a vent since i really couldn't do anything about it this morning!! Tootles....lol...I crack myself up...in retrospect i really should have said something. "Ay excuse me, your hurting me?" I don't know...

FeAr...

My favorite quote: Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant,
gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously
give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.

I try to live by this quote because in retrospect I have missed out on a lot of thing because of this small four letter word. FEAR seems so big when heard but so small in essence. Often time we make assumptions and fear comes into play and after you went ahead a step our on that five letter word FAITH you were okay. I had to write about this because I found myself in fear about something so simple and decided that today it was not going to block me of any more blessings that might be heading my way. I shall fear no man because it is He who guides me. Sometimes we get so wrapped up in what other people say or think but at the end of the day it really doesn't matter. They are just WORDS which is another small word. Sometimes we don't see the power or the lack thereof in some of things that we let consume our lives. I thought that I didn't care what people said when in reality I did care what specific people said. Especially people that were close to me and I have learned that they will be the ones to hurt you the most not because of what they said but because you let what they had to say carry more than what it really did. For instance, someone that I have never met before could insult me and I would give it two thoughts but if my bestfriend or sister were to say it i would be torn but WHY i asked myself. It doesn't really matter what neither of them think but i am not a perfect individual and long as I know who I am and whose I am this everyone is just extra. YA feel me. This was totally random just had to put somethings in perspective. I am continually learning more about myself. I leave you with this note: SELF EVALUATION IS KEY...seriously try it out sometime...people can tell you everyday you stink but until you smell yourself you won't do anything about it..tootles